I find it helpful to get male perspective because sometimes my hubby makes me crazy with his logic! I get the feeling of wanting to be free and while I do feel that urge sometimes I would never abandon him that way he has me. I technically left the situation physically but he had checked out emotionally a long time before that and I deserve better!
He has a long troubled past and I am literally as close as anyone has ever got to him. His family is uber messed up and he does not really have any close friends. He dated a bit before me and none of those "relationships" lasted more than a month or so. I think he is so used to people abandoning him that in a way he pushed the boundaries with me to see what it would take to drive me away but I meant my wedding vows and I will not leave him behind.
One thing that is making me especially crazy right now is that he thinks we are great friends and that even if we divorce he hopes we can stay friends. How insane is that? I'm good enough to keep in your life but not as a wife? Oy vey. Sometimes I don't get him. I told him flat out that if we end up divorced I could not remain his friend and have my heart ripped out everytime I saw him/talked to him and know that we are "just friends"
I like being a military wife. It is a hard road but it is a worthy road and it makes my husband feel happy and fullfilled which is why I was supportive in the first place. But it is hard when our counselor says that a lot of our problems seem to stem from the 6 months we spent apart last year (he left right after our first anniversary)
We have a lot of cards stacked against us but I am hoping we can make sense of this mess and soon. He might be leaving for training soon and I want to go with him this time. But certainly not as just a friend.
