For the Guy with Kids and a WW 12

[hopeful4her]

I should be okay, karen. Thanks though. They usually peter out by the time they get to land. I'm too far in.

I called the kids at the apartment phone today. When phone was answered I was talking in a funny voice.

"Hello?"
"HELLOOOOO!"
"Hiiii!"
?????
"Oh, your home already?"
"Yeah."
"Im so stupid. I thought it was Amanda."
It was GBG talking funny back to me.

I get to the apartment and pick up the girls. It takes at least a half hour for them to get up and out. Contant stalling. I notice a huge bedroom headboard in her room. Wood, lights, mirrors. I am trying to get the girls out of the door. She says she is leaving also to go pick up a bed. I ask about S14. She says he is doing something with his dad.

I just wonder who is going to help her?

Why do I want her back again? This person that is living her life with another man.
It keeps getting harder to remember. When I don't have to deal with her or her actions, I am GREAT. I think I need to stop going into her place somehow. Triggers. Things that keep feuling the fire inside. The anger.

I keep thinking that a D is the best thing for ME. I don't understand why she hasn't done it yet.