I got back last night and walked in the door around 11:30. It seems so surreal that I was just on the beach yesterday morning and yet last night I was back to in the Midwest. The ocean isn't all that it's about. Being with the people who love me unconditionally is a very hard thing to leave. Anyway, I got to have fried clams and the biggest lobster and more wine then 1 person was meant to have in the same night, so in that repsect it was a success! I even got to watch the Red Sox get creamed by the Texans in a bar full of Boston fans. Haven't done that in a while. The bad thing is that my son came home but I wasn't here to spend time with him. So that was sad to me.
While I was at the beach I ran into a couple of friends who didn't know my sitch. Explaining what went wrong in a nutshell never gets any easier, but I try as best I can to make it short and sweet. The other strange thing that happened is that I had a message on my machine from my SIL saying that she was "sorry she missed me but would call again". WOW, she must be really sorry because she's been missing me for 2 years or however long it's been since she last tried to call. We used to be very close but when I realized that ex's side of the family never even called anymore to check on the kids, I stopped making the effort. I can't imagine what she wanted or why now, but I guess she'll call back if it's something important. I have no intention of calling any of them and risking letting any of them dredging up that kind of hurt ever again.
This month I have 2 parent weekend for my girls & a girls overnight at a spa and I'm getting tired just thinking about it!
