Yes as painful as it is to face, I do know where I stand w/ W. It is pretty clear. The good thing is this will force me to move on. Today has been difficult for me as I've discussed this w/ my L and we've prepared a letter for the Parenting Evaluator and asked for a joint conference w/ the Evaluator and the two Ls.
I'm not sad b/c of what W is doing, but b/c of the feeling of finality of the dream. I know it may sound stupid, but I'm not sure there will ever be a point of reconcilliation. W is off in her own world and I'm most saddened by the effect it has or will have on our D.
I know I'll continue to shoulder the blame from W and I don't care about that - or at least in time I hope I won't - but I'm so worried about the health and welfare of my D. She's only 5 and W is claiming to be working in D's best interest, but in reality is very far from it.
So, it has taken the legal turn now and I'm just waiting and preparing myself for the onslaught. I'm practicing how not to respond to her and how to get her off the phone and/or end the conversation w/ her.
I miss my D and I know she misses me b/c she said so yesterday. I really just wish it wasn't like this, but this is my reality now. I know that is why today makes me very, very sad.
