NikB, you are right, I did do this to myself. I did allow myself to think all of these little signs meant something, that they were babysteps. I have even said to friends that I am not angry at him, but me for allowing myself to backslide like that.
(((BH)))
Try to go easy on yourself, OK? It's normal, and I know how you want to keep that hope alive so badly.
I DO think they were positive steps, just don't let yourself get caught up in them.
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Even today he continues to reach out to me, but I have to go my own way for the moment. I see that I am not detached enough to be in a healthy place with him yet.
Great realization!!
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I have to let the hope go before I can be giving towards him. That way I will not be looking for signs, I will just be doing it because I am a nice person.
Yes, let it go.
Does that mean you're totally shutting and locking the door? Or is it still open a crack, if he wants to peek in? Don't need to answer this right now, I just wanted to throw that question out there.
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Thanks for the support, I really needed it. You are providing much hope here to people who do not see enough success. Thank you for that.
You're so very welcome!! I'm glad that I've been able to help in some way.
Hugs to you.
Can you do something to pamper yourself today or tomorrow? I think you could use it!
Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7 Bomb 1 10/07/06 Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15 Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07 Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate 2/08 slowly improving 7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!) Current thread