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[HopefultotheEnd]

Sunday was a real point low for me. I don't know why. I really felt as if it didn't want to deal with any of this BS anymore. I knew that I had great friends and family but the constand stress of my financial, employment and marrital situations was almost too much to bear. I didn't even really miss my W I was just angry at her for the lies, deciet, and unfathfulness she has shown me. Yet still I felt the loss of not spending the rest of my life with the mother of my children.

I think it all started on Saturday. I was on the tail end of being on top of the world. Until W called me to let me know that she had arrived safely on her return flight. And then she called once again to check to see if I expected her to have the kids Sunday. (I said, "No,") I managed to be pretty much ok well into the night on Sat but Sunday was rough all day. No explanation.

I was already down when I figured out that W went out instead of crashing at home and doing laundry like she told me. I don't care at all what she does but the lying. It really sucks to be lied to. (Even worse still when the truth would have been totally ok)

So today I'm a bit better. but I feel as if I've still regressed a bit. I miss the solid feelings of detatchment that I had last week.