I am trying so hard to do this without expectations but at the same time I feel like I am still doing all of the work. She doesn't seem to get it yet. It's not about "giving it up" 1-2 times a week it's about wanting me 1-2 times a week... huge difference.
Don't worry I'm not throwing in the towel just yet. It's just so frustrating when the last time we made beautiful love and this time I have to beg for just vanilla sex. Was it not good enough last time to want more of the good stuff this time? I don't know why I didn't just roll over and go to sleep instead.
Ummm... It was me that was crying when we had that first talk though. I'm not sure she wants me as a lover any longer. I think she just loves me as a friend now. I don't know what else I can do to change this.
Ali why do there have to be so many ups and downs for us? Thanks for being here to help me through this, I promise I will keep trying as long as I can.
It was me that was crying when we had that first talk though. I'm not sure she wants me as a lover any longer. I think she just loves me as a friend now. I don't know what else I can do to change this.
