So I sent H a text this morning asking him to look out for D12's report card since she was out of school all last week. Asked him if he got any rest over the weekend.

Noon: instead of texting back, H called me \:\) Said he did manage to get some rest this weekend and was working at home this morning doing his narratives. Confirmed tomorrow, said he only had one appointment at 2:30 so it looked like a go.

Then I got a little sneaky. Told him I took some chicken out over the weekend and needede to cook it, and would he like to stay and have a quick bite? Said he did not want to say yes or no because he did not know what his schedule was going to be. Sooo I said I will do this: cook dinner and if he can stay cool, and if not I would eat it the next day too! Said okay \:\) at least he didn't say no. But of course, I sounded like a fuc$!ing teenager trying to stumble the invite out without making him feel obligated, so because of that he may perceive I was nervous and reading more into it (no...just dinner).

Whew

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..