New month, new strategy

[istherehope]

Thanks Pisces. You're right I do say yes but...I am afraid of getting my hopes dashed I guess! I know I need to work on that.

OK my positive actions today were:

Avoiding all R talk, not asking for future talk or making any myself (I did say once that I would give H his favorite painting back as I wouldn't be in Poland forever, maybe pushing it a hair), not reacting after sex, complimenting his muscles profusely, complimenting his painting profusely, asking about his work trip to South Africa, asking him about books, sitting and reading one of the books he suggested while he was on his laptop so letting him do the talking when he wanted to, not acting upset by the comment that I couldn't stay in the house and turning it into a joke, asking about his friend and roommate and saying how cool he sounded, saying how great the house looked, not getting up and following him around as he got ready to leave (I used to do that even pre-bomb), joking about him leaving the house as if I didn't care, and letting him initiate physical affection. I did poke him a couple of times when he was telling me about a wine bar in South Africa he went to and a wine he was drinking there, one of my favorites, so I just poked him and said I was so jealous. I don't remember about what, but I do remember laughing about something with him on the couch. I did not ask about seeing him tomorrow, and I did not bring up Poland. I REALLY wanted to bring up Poland, and I still do, but I basically gave my word I wouldn't, so we'll see what happens with that!

Tomorrow should be interesting. I am fairly certain I will see him online, but I don't know whether he will try not to contact me. It seems he is strictly going for an every other day policy now. Interesting...Today was an action-packed day!

Thanks Pisces for always being so positive,

ITH