Ready, I am no longer going to be doing things for him....everything is going to be about me and my son. I cant just keep hanging on hoping that one day he will wake up. I am losing too much precious time by doing that. There will be no more DBing from me. I will continue to be kind towards him, but I will no longer be doing anything for him. As much as I missed them, the hugs have to stop. As much as I wished it meant more, having glasses of wine together has to stop. There will be no more conversations about how his life is going or how mine is going, he is not my friend.
He was doing all of these things in order to make himself feel good about who he is. It relieved his guilt, tht's all. The fact that he started to do these things right as he began to sleep with OW again tells me so much about who he is right now. He has apologised in the past for the A and said he knew it was wrong. When I asked him why he is doing it again he said that it was wrong then, but our M is over so it is not wrong now. I cant fight for a person who would be this way at a time I need him the most. My energy needs to be directed elsewhere.
Thank you for your support and prayers. I appreciate it very much. By the way, I still plan on looking darn cute EVERYTIME I see him. Just because I am no longer DBing doesnt mean I dont want to rub it in his face a little what he chose to leave.
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
