met w a new IC friday and he is cognitive behavioral- works on changing your thoughts about ideas you have...ie: my family. that was great and i regained my strength to talk w my bro,.
I went to work friday after- my bro is in town...he and i talked...my bro yelled a lot to start - a lot. my mom even did a first- she said you are intimidating....Pisces would be happy to live in a single wide w her H. she doesnt care.
so then we got to the bottom of it all. just my bro and i . i said i may leave company and want to be with H and start fresh. house is too close.
just need to start over. he said he agreed house was too close. and i felt a relief that he now knows i am leaving the company. that may not be for 6 months for a total separation from the biz- but he was totally ok with it. i was so scared he would freak out at that...but he was actually most calm about that. weird.
so now that my bro knows it all he feels better. he said why wont we take his $. so we talked about why. he said he would set up an acct for us. he doest care. he said you are my only family...i just listened.
overall i feel happy about clearing the air w my bro and realizing he and i have a sep R from my preants. its all so lumped together...
so our house goes on the market today! i made it all pretty over the weekend...realtor came and had photos taken. its ready to go. it may take time to sell- then we'd rent for a while til we figure out what we want to do.
crazy. my bro is so up and down. too much stress for me to have his control with $. i just want to have nice R with him.....
sorry to sound like im ungrateful...i just want a new life.
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