New month, new strategy

[istherehope]

And I REALLY, REALLY want to backslide. Part of me feels like I have a fantastic opportunity while I am here to just get back into his life, even if it's not moving in right away. Is DB right even with a depressed person?

I would be wrong to act on these urges right? I just worry that he is so obsessed with this being codependent idea that he'll take it to the extreme, unless he can be around me and see that the dynamic is consistently different than it was. I mean it already was today, at least I thought so...How much more progress can we actually make with me in another country and 5 minute IM chats every other day? If I were in Dublin, I'm sure we'd see each other at least once per week, and we would share more of our lives, the pets, the car etc.

He now has a "roommate" who just got dumped by his girlfriend, so it's like a bachelor pad. I mean I do like the fact that he can be around other people more. It's just that I want to be in that category of safe and good too, although not so safe that I am not lovable.

Have I made any progress I wonder in terms of things with H or was today just a matter of him wanting sex? I mean fair enough if that's what he wanted. It was one of my goals for September, and I am really glad I decided to wear a new outfit.

OD said steps need to be seen as smaller and may go back and forth. Just wondering though if anyone familiar with my sitch sees positive progression amidst my whining? I see it in him as a person, being less depressed, and I'm thrilled for him, and this does matter. Of course there is the relationship too, and since he's likely not to work on it anytime soon given everything else he has going on, I hope that I am making progress in some way...

ITH