You are clearly on the cusp of a new phase. How long since your W became this strange new person?
What I wrote was more journaling for me, working things out in my head. I didn't mean to contribute to a sense of hopelessness. Or maybe that's an appropriate place to be, I don't know. It does make one wonder why we bother.
M60 H52 D20 M14 yrs OW-old gf from 1986 bomb-5/18/08 H filed for D-9/10/08 D final 4/24/09 xH remarried (not OW) 2012