Okay so the party was fantastic! D12 and I had a lot of fun tearing up the dance floor, doing the cha cha...
H did not manage to show up, but I did get a text from him Friday. It surprised me a bit, he said they might be closing his unit at work. I called him, and proceeded to chat about it, seems that EP has more offices open than open CPS cases, so they are thinking this could potentially mean lay offs, and reorganization. I asked him if that meant he could end up somewhere else in Texas, and he said he did not know, but was worried about how he would manage to rent the house and pay for an apartment if he needed to. I told him if he got relocated, I would move back into the house. He said that was fine, but he still was not going to be able to pay for two households, and I said well I would pay for the house if I was living there! I also said if he gets laid off, by that time I should know something about going permanent at this job and would cover him under health insurance. He said that would be fine, between that and the unemployment it would be tight but we would cross that bridge when we came to it.
Did not hear from him for the rest of the weekend, but the fact that he chose to tell me about that I think was a big step, although I am not sure why he would think I would not pay for the house if I was living there.
On the flipside, D21 (for those of you who don't know my sitch, she was a major problem w/ the M) was in a car accident. She is okay, bumped and bruised but otherwise fine. I am having a very hard time mustering much sympathy for her though. Thank God baby Boo Boo (she is 4 mos.) was not in the car w/ her. So D21 calls me so she can get Grandpa's (my F) phone number so she can ask for money. I called my F, and told him not to give her any, because to be honest, this kid takes and takes and takes. She has money in savings and told D23 that the only reason she was calling G'pa was because she knew he had money. That ticked me off. I did not give her the number, and if she calls to ask for it again, I have decided that I am going to tell her that I already talked to him, and recommended he not give her anything. It is frustrating b/c I love her, but somewhere along the line she needs to grow up. She thinks life is a handout, and I know she and her H can afford the deductible and rental car, so I don't know why she wants to get money rather than take the savings and take care of it with that.
As for the rest of the weekend, it was actually really peaceful. I was missing H quite a bit last night and shed a few tears, but did not call. I want him to miss me a little too...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
