I am alone today.. the kids are in school and hubby is at work.
I have called my friend to go have coffee and she doesn't answer? I may just go myself...
I am feeling better and not so paranoid. My Kids and I and hubby had a good day yesterday.
I had some free time all to myself and my kids were at the new house playing with the neighbor kids. And hubby went to visit a friend for a bit.
He didn't go out and he did not get drunk.... All weekend. he is still drinking but the funny thing is I am dumping most of the beer out ,,he leaves them mostly full. Positives.
And I can see that if I keep this up and he stays open to change ,, this just might get healthy!
Very healthy!!!!!!!!!!
But I also have to let go and know it is ok to be happy and I am worth it.
I fight it myself. All I have ever known is to fight for happiness, it was never just given to me freely.
