Here I am....real life and all.

[Starshyne]

I have been reading a book called "Formerly a Wife." It has been really helpful to me. The author goes through the feelings she had and thoughts she had right after her divorce from her cheating husband. I realize (yet again) that what I am feeling and thinking is perfectly normal! The book even said that it is common for the ex to call you to dump all of his problems on you especially the first few months after divorce. Well that is what I am going through right now. I don't answer the phone very often when I see it is him, but sometimes I have moments of weakness and pick up. He is so miserable right now. Is still trying to break up with the OW (who now has her ex bf living with her! Strange!), hates living alone, hates how guilty he feels for hurting me etc etc etc. I do feel sorry for him, but I can't do anything about it. He made the choice to leave me. I tried with all I could to work on the marriage, but I couldn't do it all single handedly. He made the choice to leave and now has to live with it.

I have been busy with church and guitar lessons and work. My goodness....this year's kids are pretty wild! Bad behaviors all over the place plus very low in academics. It is a challenge to face this year for sure. Plus I have also been seeing that man that I went to high school with now and then. We both agreed that we need to go slowly into a relationship, but I think we both can see this turning into something really good. He is just so nice and kind to me. He really listens to me and jokes around with me. It is a very nice change from what I was accustomed to.

Sara