I think God must have had you to write that encouragement to me b/c I needed to hear that today. I still have times that I really struggle with what I've done and I wonder if I will ever feel this.......dark cloud lift from me. I know that God has forgiven me, but I still am so ashamed and wonder how on earth I could have allowed myself to fall into such a temptation as I did. I lived my entire life for God and family and tore it down within just a few months time. I'm trying to get back to where I was spiritually, but don't quite feel there yet. I really enjoy our Pastor's sermons and I am trying to get back more involved in Church again. That is important to me. You see, I was a teacher, and have been for many years, but after I messed up, I stepped down b/c I did not feel that I was any kind of a role model to be a teacher. Anyway, I am trying to get that behind me and get back where I was. I will never feel that my life is complete until I can do what I use to do in the Church.
This past year, most of my evenings have been right here on this bb talking to people who come for help. I don't know if I ever help anyone. I never thought my gift was "encouraging" people....lol. But, if I can say something that will help.....someway, then that makes me feel a lot better.
So, thank you very, very much for those kind words. I needed that today. I think it was Kind David that said something to the effect that "my sins are forever before me", meaning that even though God forgives us, we don't forget what we've done. So, I still feel the after effects.
I ask for prayers b/c I know that I still do not have the desire that I want and need to have for my H. I don't have the energy that I need to put forth the efforts in the work for my M. I get encouraged by the posts of others, but then my body feels so worn out and won't do what I want it to. I know only God can give me that energy and the desire that I need.
Listen at me just rambling and all I wanted to do was to say, "thank you". You are an "encourager"!
Sandi
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
