Thanks, every body, for jumping in. Just got off a call to a cousin (second down on my list of friends) who helped me so much.

He is NOT the man I love--and I can't keep living in the past. It is delusional to think that the man I married is still lingering around in there.

I;ve gotten through so very much....this is only the next speed bump.

Keep the focus on me and let him have his life, without interference.

OK, took Lunsta and xanaz- first time in months. I'm goin gto sign off whiole I am still kindof coherent.

Thank you all again......