For the Guy with Kids and a WW 12

[hopeful4her]

Thats why I posted, guys. I put it all out there for all to see. The turmoil inside of me.

Conflictions. Temptations.

The people in my life. Telling me to go another way. I am totally learning from this experience and it has made me stronger. On both sides.

I know what I want. I want to reconcile with my wife. If she will reconcile with me.

kat, I bet you've been hit on. You just didn't see it. Our self esteem takes a beating going through this crap. And before going through this crap, we didn't see it because we were in love. I know I don't see stuff like that. Just like when GBG and I first got together. Friends for a year, and I had no idea how she felt about me. NONE. We had one chance night of passion that seemingly never ended until about 2 years ago. I've had really good friends tell me in the past that they would have dated me, but I was with my first wife.

I truly have no clue in those things. I don't see myself as that type. To pursue. To chase. To play. It's not me. Never has been.

Thats why this sitch now with the alphabet girls just completely blows my mind. I have NEVER been in this type of position.

Like I said, I meet my first wife when I was 15. We were together a total of 15 years. I have been with GBG for 14 years now. Thats 29 years. I am 43. I went from one to the other. I have never been a player type. I was always the nice guy, the sweet guy. The great friend to most girls.

Although I did a lot of things in my time, being the type of guy that attracted women or girls was not one of them. Thats why I'm so fascinated by my sitch.

That being said, ya'll know I will keep going on. Trying to achieve my goal. Reconciling and my personal goals.

And being a great dad. First and foremost.

And yes, keep talking to me lis. We can all use encouragement.