As I stated in an earlier post, I am still having a hard time not thinking about the fact that she has feelings for someone else. I know we had issues for some time and tried to deal with them, but I was oblivious to the fact that she no longer loved me or cared.
When I finally realized it while visiting her at camp, it was like a punch to the stomach. When i confronted her. she denied it of course, but I know it to be true. Now we are on the way to divorce. Something i thought about, but always hoped to avoid.
She has mentally distanced herself, but I am having difficulty as i still in some fashion love her. I know I shouldn't after the way she treated me and how things have been. Nevertheless, she is the mother of my children and the thought of her with someone else is crushing me.
I am trying to stay busy at work and be with friends and family. I am also spending more time at the gym and getting back into shape. I can only change me and want to be happy, and know it will take time to get over this.
Any other suggestions would be helpful as I hope another more appreciative and loving person should hopefully be in my future. Right now, I can not think of such a thing and am afraid and scared as this whole thing is less than a month old.
