I'm not sure if it has made a difference. The similarity is that they have been women he works with. He finds almost a sense of masculinity when these women chase him, pay attention to him, stroke his ego, you know what I mean? Since I don't do that he was seeking it somewhere else. Especially the 21 OW now called him "a god" in one of her emails to him. What a bunch of s&it! Made me want to vomit.
I just want to believe he will change but all I read is that until I start to change he won't. I just don't know if I can wait this out for 6, 9, or even a year...... I love him so much but I have been through this like yourself once before. I want to believe that I do deserve better. I just don't know if I can ever love someone the way that I love him. Can I give myself to someone the way that I have given myself to him? That is what I fight with myself everyday.
Me35/H35 D16/SS14 M-1yr/known H 18yrs 1st Bomb: 4/26 OW35 2nd Bomb: 8/17 OW21 Moved out 8/21/08 H filed D on 9/9/08
God determines who walks into your life...it's up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.
