Please share your thoughts! I need to hear what other people think. I very rarely get offended or upset when people tell me how they feel about what is happening to me right now.
The more I read about this the more I understand why this is happening. The first affair was with someone he had feelings for in the past but when she revealed her true self he wanted nothing to do with her. But the second was at a time when he was loosing his real estate office. He was a franchise owner of a local real estate company and he had only been open for a year. Finances were so bad that he had to close it. To me, he felt comfort with this 21 OW because she brought him out of his depression for loosing the one thing he valued most and that was his career. Plus there were many negative things happening at home, bankruptcy, the scar of the first affair, his mom having breast cancer, and my snooping. This girl was his escape from reality. He couldn't bare to see me hurt everyday and then when he told me about this girl that was it for me. Sometimes I wonder if he did it as a way to just get out and hoped I would just let go of him because he was such a failure.
We have known each other for 18 years married one year tomorrow in fact. Tomorrow will be very difficult for me. I will have to give every ounce of my soul to not contact him. But I will think about it all day long.
I fight myself everyday to keep going. Is there any hope?
Me35/H35 D16/SS14 M-1yr/known H 18yrs 1st Bomb: 4/26 OW35 2nd Bomb: 8/17 OW21 Moved out 8/21/08 H filed D on 9/9/08
God determines who walks into your life...it's up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.
