Trixi and His Highness

[Trixi]

I don't think you "blew" anything exactly, I just think you're wayyyy too available and not allowing him to "pursue" you at all. I truly think playing hard to get would be at least worth TRYING in your sitch. You can't really pursue someone who's already chasing you.

That's very true. I think what I "blew" was the chance to capatilize on his positive feelings towards me. Now it looks like he is withdrawing again.
The bummer is that he has said (more than a couple times) when he gets into the withdrawal stage that "we always end up here" as his reasoning for why we should just call it quits.
I am afraid that given our current circumstances and the fact that he had been ready to file previously, that this will be the 'nudge' that pushes him over the edge into filing.

Re 'standing for the marriage'- I guess I see this as part of what a person does when they make a commitment. You stick it out because you made a promise- in sickness and in health, etc etc. Sort of leading by example and demonstrating what a *real* commitment is. It's not a commitment if you only stick around for the good times or when you feel like it. Heh-having said that, I wonder where the line is between "being committed" and "being a fool".

In happier news- I have gotten several emails and greetings from people I met at the meetups, so that's nice.

Yeah, the meetups thing *is* out of character for me-it was your advice to CW that made me look again to see what groups were available. I was really lucky last night because one of the members took me under her wing and introduced me to people, gave me "tips", told me which groups had the same core active people, stuff like that.

Feeling kinda wiped today. I think I need to get on the torch and melt glass.