He's dark, I'm dark, everyone is dark

[Neilh23]

Super GALing...LOL....i just did....

[hoosiermama]

Poet--

You're right--I don't know why we keep wasting our time on that other person't thread. It's not like our input is valued there.

I'm still pretty new at this myself, and have until very recently been in the middle of more than one crisis. So I haven't posted a lot on other threads because I'm not sure how much I have to offer. The other thing is I haven't had much opportunity for real db'ing, because I'm at the stage where my H is running far and fast toward someone else and I'm only a speed bump for him, not even a real person. It's hard to db when they're not paying attention!

Sounds like your H is an angry control freak. It's hard not to feel like a victim under the circumstances, but that's a really miserable place to be. Being a victim is bad for your self-esteem, which is already suffering greatly. It's also bad karma sometimes, as it seems to result in sharks circling because they smell blood. My experience is that people (not friends, just unkind others) seem to enjoy kicking you when you're down. So whatever you can do to take some control over your life will be helpful. Keep your thumb drive with you, use all those computer thingies mentioned above--so you can at least have some privacy. And definitely refuse to talk with him, because he's bullying and intimidating you. If there are things he legitimately needs to communicate, it can be done either through lawyers or email or messages. I know the natural tendency is to want to have an opportunity to have a positive conversation, but that's not likely to happen while he's in this angry, controlling, punishing phase.

Definitely do the massage!! I'm planning one when I get my first paycheck. You need to be touched, and the massage will get some endorphins flowing, which is very helpful. In addition, you will feel more relaxed and even able to breathe again; I have found on many occasions that I've been holding my breath without realizing it. I received some Healing Touch, and was able to release that breath-holding, and it did wonders for my anxiety. How are you sleeping? That can also make a big difference for you emotionally. For me, I could fall asleep with no problem, but would always wake up in the middle of the night and be unable to go back to sleep. Only recently that's changed, and I feel worlds better. There are some otc herbals that can help with that--especially valerian (pills, not tea--it smells bad but works well).

Hope that's helpful. Good for you, to ask for what you need!

[*KS*Chick*]

Hi Poet,

As far as feelings being all over, it's to be expected. I'm not quite sure how to fix that. I think in limbo, it just is that way - a lot.

Fortunately it won't last. Chin up!

P.S. you don't need to up your post count to jump forums

[poet]

"I received some Healing Touch, and was able to release that breath-holding, and it did wonders for my anxiety."

Oh my Gosh! Hoosier,

You said just what I needed to hear. Can you please tell me more about "Healing Touch." Is there a Web site? Is it a form of massage? I would love to do it/have it/know about it, if you happen to check back in on me.

Thank you for recognizig that I needed the interaction this morning. I am extremely greatful. Yes, I slept last night, sort of like you do. I got up in the middle of the night, but sometime around 4:45 a.m. I guess I got back to sleep.

This morning I went out for breakfast, but I was tired when I got back home. So, I put my pjs back on and curled up and napped again for a few minutes. I'm probably going to go to church this morning, and then we'll see. Maybe check out the springs and go swimming. Not sure yet what I'll do, but I'm sure I'll do something for me.

Again, thanks for stopping by.

Peace!
poet



Thank you for posting to my thread.

[poet]

Hi KS Chick,

Gosh, where did you come from. You must be a lurker. It doesn't matter to me, but I'm really glad you came to visit.

Ok, so what did you mean by I don't need my post count up to jump formums. I need to have 100 posts to my thread before this one locks, right?

cheers,
poet

[*KS*Chick*]

your thread will lock around 100 posts but you don't need to wait for it to lock to post a new one in separated if you think you'd be more comfie there

[phoenyx]

after church, go swimming, take a bike ride. stay out of the house. take your mind off things.

[poet]

Hi Phoenix,

Thank you for the advice, and yes, I plan to do something today after church. I'm just not sure yet what it will be.

Bye the way....

"Ed is awesome, I am listening to dreams right now. He is a Godsend in this world of pay me for salvation evangelists. You have to check out Betrayal and the forgiveness cd. You can get betrayal on podcast(free). If it's not still available I got it saved, let me know and I'm sure you someone has your email that has mine and I can get it to you."

Betrayal is not available and I would dearly love a copy if you have it. You can find my if you're on FB in the other "universe" BND has my email address. I'm there too. Are you?

Peace!
poet

[poet]

I'm off to church .... and, I made an appointment for a massage and a facial at my favorite spa.


poet

[phoenyx]

i will work on it