Hey Jen! I wonder in your sitch..its very much about showing him you've changed and telling yourself, next time it will be different. But maybe the reason these things happen, is becuase you may have changed from when you were M, but you havent fully integrated those changes and he is still aware of that and therefore nervous of bringing you back into his life. Its all very well to resolve to act a certain way and get back on the DB horse, but maybe what you need to do is work on yourself and why you keep acting like this? When you say:
"My large and important goal is to be calm, cool and relaxed; to not let stupid stuff bug the life out of me; to pick my battles"
why battle at all??? Life is too short for battles and you are in a very precarious position! You are already D. What more can you do to address your control issues? Theres lessons in this for all of us, I see it so much all over these boards. For me and some others, it is already too late, but it isnt too late for you !! Rooting for you...
Ali xxx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
