Please help me to not give up............

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Thanks so much Sandi. Wise words, as always.

I am so bitterly aware that my working away from home for so long has played a huge part in my downfall, and our break-up. I just wish I knew what to do about it now.

I was thinking about a plan, where I could try to work from home more. The technology is now available for me to be able to do that with capital investment in more equipment. I'm more than prepared to do that. But her reaction when I talked about trying to work and be there more, either with another job or working from home at least part time, was met with grave concern. She actually said that it really upset her that I was considering that. She went on to say that she had wanted me to try to make that change for so many years, but now it was simply too late.

I know that if I could do this, it would be an enormous 180 life change for me,and she would certainly notice it in a big way. But how can I consider it, if she really is adamant that she doesn't want that now?

I guess I am impatient to make changes that will be dramatic, along the "actions speak louder than words route". But equally, know that I cannot hurry this along in any way.

I appear to be left with my only option, which is to continue to cultivate a warmth and friendship in the weekend visits that I have.

Sandi, all that you say makes perfect sense. You are truly wonderful for helping me fight through this........