I'm heading to church with the kids, we will see what that brings. In the past it has always been a time of high emotion and all I can do to keep my tears inside. Today, I expect it to no longer be about W and me. I know that I've been back and forth in what I plan and about my current plan, I feel a sense of determination and a resolve that have been missing before. I feel like I've come to a place of peace where I will be OK no matter what happens and while I'm sad to be here, I'm equally thrilled to be grown finally and a man.
I can't imagine anything happening until October at the earliest as I need time to gather everything together, and to make doubly sure that this is indeed the right course of action. Coincidentally, it also gives W several more opportunities to see me and the changes that I have made.
