john, Sorry to hear of the most recent devlopments. I don't know what to tell you as I'm not in your shoes and if there's one thing I've learnt it's that I get advice from people who really have no clue what they are talking about - when it's their life on the line the story will be different. Anyway, I hope you are not being too hasty and can find a way to deal with the anger. Last night I had an awful dream featuring my W and where I got very angry with W. I remember the dream in vivid detail and it was triggered by something traumatic that happened to my d12 this week. I realize I've been suppressing my anger for months which is not such a good thing either. Also I've managed to stay celebant for over 18 months - perhaps for life, god only knows our futures. You may want to review Lan's threads for some inspiration.
