Cinders, dear, you do NOT have to apologize for being human and feeling overwhelmed at all of this. You are dealing with the dismantling of your dreams and loss of your family (for now, at least). Of course you will have times when you do not have it all together. I STILL do, even though everything is signed, and I do not have the least desire to get back together with my XH.
I know this hurts; we all do. We all hate to see our spouses out having fun w/ someone else, esp doing things they wouldn't do with us. But remember that this is still the courtship phase. And remember also that he needs to seem young to hold onto this younger woman - it is stressful for him, even though it may not appear that way to you. This is not who he really is - he is trying to be what SHE wants! That will get old at some point.
But as for you: God loves you. He "lets" these things happen b/c, unfortunately, humans so often abuse the free will He gave us. They make bad choices that hurt themselves and others, and God does not "make" anyone do the right thing. But He does support and give strength to those who strive to do it. I know that He is proud of you and wants to help you. Keep asking, Cinders, ask for his love to surround you. Pray for your H, but pray for YOU, too.
I will do the same for you, Nicola
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