I luv your use of the word recovery ... yes, its a level that goes beyond piecing and is rarely explored on this bb. Would be very interest in hearing more from those that are "recovering".
Like LAN, I feel now for a better part of a year, I actually stuck in a limbo wasteland between peicing and recovery. While I don't believe there's the threat she will walk away tomorrow, next week or even next month, the futher out I try to project the cloudier it gets. Likewise, we don't seem to be advancing any towards a better M at this time either. Frankly, we're in limbo, because I believe CAW is in limbo. Hasn't made any choices to go in one direction or the other ... but taking a wait and see approach. I don't know how long she is willing to wait?! ... and I feel all I can do at this point is wait as I continue to be the "new" me until she makes up her mind. Then the question become how long am I willing to wait as she waits for the answer to come to her?
Oh well, enough since this is not my thread, in fact, I stopped maintaining a thread so long as I'm stuck in this waiting game. I just wanted to acknowledge your return ... Glad to see you came back for a visit Z! and glad too to hear that you are doing well and so seems your M, altho I do hear a lot of reserve in your message. Maybe you would consider starting a thread to get into that some?
Quote: Some of the things I've written have come back to haunt me. Other things have been my rock to which I cling.
Would like if you went into more detail here too. Let us know more about what worked / didn't work for you as I in turn have look upon you for guidance whenever I could.
Hope to here from you again, Z
... and not to ignore LAN. Hope you do come back around too from time to time. Like to hear from you too.
... and I feel all I can do at this point is wait as I continue to be the "new" me until she makes up her mind. Then the question become how long am I willing to wait as she waits for the answer to come to her? 
