Urgh, I HATE that he is this happy and free and YOUNG ! He NEVER wanted to do any of that when he was in this life with me.
Oh sister I hear ya.
H has done so many things over the last year that I used to beg him to do with me (one of them being going to concerts). It makes me feel all irky inside.
I sometimes get jealous that he is free to do what he wants/when he wants, and I get jealous that he is doing new things with other people. I feel like a schlump at home sometimes, going to bed with the kids at 9pm. BUT....then I remind myself that I am exactly where I want to be, with my kids. I couldn't think of anywhere else I would want to be. I do get out and do things, but I don't try to 'compete' with H, I just do what I want.
Its no wonder you are having trouble detaching lately. You are still ringing from the conversations with H. Time time time, it all takes time.
