Ready to GAL...Drop the Rope...Detach..3...

[ddstartingover]

Yesterday I took D11 to a friends so they could go to sb practice together. D15 was between games at her sb tournament. When I got back to the tournament it was raining, and they cancelled the rest of the games. H said he was taking S to baseball practice, could I take D15 because she didn't want to go to practice. I said sure (even though it is "his" weekend). I took her home and later sent H a TM asking when he would be back in town. I was planning on going to my mom's for the night. He called and said they were on their way back would we want to meet for dinner. I said D11 wasn't home yet and D15 was wanting a nap. He said to let him know when D11 was back.

I met my friend later and picked D11 up, and sent H a text telling him she was home, D15 was asleep----he can picke them up when he wants. He answered that maybe he should wait until D15 woke up. I replied that he may not want her to sleep that long............he later again suggested we meet for dinner, so I agreed. I called my mom and told her I wouldn't be coming. The girls and I went to H's house and picked H and S up. H sat in the back. He didn't really speak to me, but asked a couple questions. When we got to the restaurant he sat on the same side of the table as me, but with D15 between us, so he didn't have to look at me. We had dinner almost as if we were at different tables. He talked to the kids. He asked D15 the same question at least 3 times, and then turned to me and asked me the same question-----one that he had asked me in the car. I looked at D15 and mouthed "how many times is he going to ask???" She rolled her eyes. We finished dinner and went to the car. H and D11 didn't come out right away. H went to the bathroom and D was looking at pictures in the lobby.

When we got to the car D asked me if dad was "drunk or something." I said I don't know..............I asked S casually if dad had had a few beers or a whiskey while they were waiting on us and he said no............D also said that H kept rubbing her shoulder and touching her ear and kept repeating the same things...............she said the would probably go hide in her room when they got back to the house. She definitely knows and has witnessed his bizzarre behavior. H continued to repeat himself on the way back to his house.

Anyway, has me wondering...........I know when he lived here I was sure he was drinking too much. I accused him of having a problem, which he denied. I'm sure that he has some kind of an issue with alcohol, but not anything I can do I guess unless I find out he's driving drunk with the kids in the car.........still worries me though. Sometimes I just feel like he's imploding. I watch him and learn of things he's done and said and I know that he is way worse off than I am. It kind of makes me feel good, knowing that I have direction and am making progress, but I still worry about him.

I know that if there is ever a future for "us" it's a long way off. He has a lot of work to do on him, and I'm sure he doesn't realize it.

I'm glad I was there and able to drive them all to dinner though............when I dropped them off H got out of the car, didn't say anything. I hugged each of the kids and turned to say goodbye and H was already half way in the house and never turned to say goodbye or anything.....................made me feel sad, mostly because I am more and more realizing how screwed up he is----not because he wasn't coming home with me.

Any answers or explanations for the behavior, or advice on how to deal with a potential problem with H's drinking???

S has double header baseball games today, so I'll be with them all for most of the afternoon..............