Wow, Donna. Sometimes I come on here to lurk and see if I can feel less alone in my journey. I identify with what you have written - I am stuck in the same place and struggling to forgive and heal myself. It just blows me away when other people, like you, are willing and able to write so honestly about their experience and it is so helpful to know that others share this struggle.
me: 47 H: 48 he has 2 grown sons M 1995(my 1st, his 3rd) hit iceberg 6/07 S 9/26/07 before now