Cinders,
I could have written every single word that you wrote in your last post.

I remember saying to a friend of mine when all this started that I never wanted to be in a position where I hated my H.

Let me tell you that this is exactly how your H wants you to feel. It takes the heat off them. They can continue to blame you for the way things have turned out. Now is the time that you really need to go dark. That way any off the wall feelings you have for your H right now will not surface as anger in his presence.

It will pass. It may also raise it's ugly head again sometime in the future but it is all part of the process.

(((((((((Hugs))))))))))


Me 43
XH 45
M 2.7.88
Divorce 7.10.09
Kids D20,S17 & D15