T - I just wanted to say thank you for posting such a long post. I really appreciate the time you took to give me your wisdom. the best part was when you said that he probably has NFC that he is hurting me. I agree! I just have to work out how not to get hurt so easily. I am so much more fragile than I used to be. I think this is a new anxiety, and based on the idea that when a guy is really into a girl, he will step up and really try hard to win her. The other thing is that I compare other guys who have been interested in the last few months and how they pursued me, and how H compares...
which leads me on to your comment OD, about how this must be harder for him than me, and how he has to deal with his guilt and all that junk as well. And obviously he is scared of getting hurt or whatever it was that went 'wrong' again. And I do need to compliment him and validate him. This is where I fall down.
So I'm fully recovered after my crash.
Today went like this: H called me about 10am (about 15 minutes after I posted) but I was having a shower and didn't hear it. He didn't leave a message. But I could see his car at next door neighbours so I knew they were out wake boarding.
i had other stuff to do for about an hour, he hadn't recalled. So I drove over to next door neighbour, and popped a card and the tickets on the front seat. The card said 'Happy Birthday', and 'I'm glad to have you in my life'.
About 2 hours later I got a text message saying "thanks soooo much, but you have to come with me".
I've been out with my family celebrating Fathers Day.
Haven t replied to the text message.... I will wait until tomorrow night. If he hasn't tried to contact me I will text him.
Feeling much stronger and in control again. Will keep you up to date!
