One Last Pull for this Knot to Break

[sleeper]

Speak of the devil.

"I speak of the devil regularly, but when I'm irregular I think it's the devil speaking to me."(Something Groucho Marx might say)

X called several times around lunchtime but I missd her calls. When I saw them on the ID I hesitated calling her back but decided I would. She wanted me and the kids to join her for lunch. I told her I had plans. She asked if I could bring the kids to see her for a minute at the resturant anyway. I told her I would because it was on our way and we were nearby.

After we arrived the kids said hi to X and then ran off to visit a friend of theirs they saw in the resturant. I sat down across from X who was already eating and we talked. The visit was with me about 93% and with the kids about 7%. She shared problems at work that were bothering her.

When she finished eating and we all left together. I put the kids in my car first as I had parked beside hers. I walked her back to her car, opened the door for her and made a point to reach across her and buckle her in her seat. She said, "thank you."

She called around dinnertime and asked if she could get the kids late tomorrow instead of early. I said no problem. We talked briefly about her issues at work and I offered a few suggestions. She said she has tickets to an event she is not going to be able to take the kids to explaining I could take them if I wanted. She added she had an extra ticket if I wanted to take someone along. She said, "I bought an extra ticket, in case (she paused) I found a girlfriend or someone who wanted to go with us."

I told her I would take the kids to church tomorrow and she told me how pleased she was that I would. She then opened up and related that it bothered her when I continued to go to the church we had been attending together after we separated. She now feels she was being "selfish" for having those feelings. I told her I didn't realize she had felt that way.