Hey Ali \:\)

I'm hoping... keep good thoughts going... there's so much that still will need to be pieced, obviously... but right now... it's a first step in the right direction.

It is a vindication, isn't it. I hadn't thought about that. He told me stuff that he said to her,... and I have to admit, I'm rather surprised at how ... "un alien" he seems right now. The whole convo seemed so... natural. I didn't feel knives or anything in my gut. Strange, actually cuz we talked about some difficult things. That just occurred to me now too... he needed me as a friend... needed me as the listener... I think I did good. \:\)

I'm not counting my chickens... as I said... it's a first step... and he may get scared... and retreat yet... which I'll just have to try to do as well then as I think I did today. What's interesting is when I asked him why he didn't act on his wanting to come over before etc... he said he was scared and didn't know if he "could". So maybe I was right thinking I "saw" him that night at the movies... that he was still in there. Is looking that way. Slow baby steps... keep reminding myself slow...slow baby steps. And yes... things happen for a reason... and so hopefully this is the case... the A makes the R stronger. He still won't admit to the A.... don't know what to do with that yet (that's probably councilling territory... will deal with that later) ... ah... for now, we said we'd like to push the bad stuff aside and work on connecting again. He was careful to say... no promises... but certain things we discussed... had him using "we" and talking about some of the dreams we used to talk recently about together as a couple. One in particular had me asking about specifics... and it did include me and some "things" we'd have to do to make it happen.

I'm glad I upped my meds \:\)
I'll keep my fingers crossed for you Ali... I've been laying low so I'll try to catch up with your thread soon.

*hugs*
Abbey

T:22, M:20
H:55 Me:45
H-OW PA: N/07
OW Jan08
Bomb:Feb/08
S: Apr/08
Back together Ap1/09-Sept/11
Oct, 2011, uncertain future/H is a mess.
Dec/11 - Doin'friend mode. Some days are better than others.