A big relationship talk - out of the blue....

[Abbey]

OKie dokie... strange update. I wanted to start a new thread because I'd all but closed the door on things in my last thread. Well... just when you least expect things... expect them. We had a BIG relationship talk. Completely out of the blue... He phoned last night, I wasn't home... called again today to come visit. That had my radar up. I knew he wanted to talk. Wasn't sure what to expect... the worst, the best... who knew.

I won't get into particulars here just yet,... suffice to say ... the shiny new penny has apparently FINALLY started to lose some of her shine. He admitted to me as such and that he can't see her and he being a long term thing... and told her that this morning he said. She tried to pull the power play of saying she was going to go back to her H... which didn't phase my H... he said he can't see ever living with her and refused to give in to it. Matter of fact... these power plays of hers have backfired, it looks like. There's ONE more power play she's pulling... I'm going to sit in the bush until it comes full circle... can't do anything yet... cept wait. He said her temper is like an on/off switch. He's not impressed. Nor was he impressed with other things she's been doing the last few weeks. Suddenly I'm the one he needs... the stable one.

He started off by asking me if I was seeing anyone. I probably broke every rule in the book in the talk... except the L word, I didn't say that. I used care, used words like "missed you"... and he said he missed me too.. So we're having dinner to'row night... and he said something about Monday etc too. I finally told him about my school plans.... he was very encouraging. It felt like the right time to show my true state of stability.

I know that he hates being alone, he wants a wife and someone who can devote time to him, which is what we both need and want. I said I wanted to start off slowly trying to be friends again... baby steps... and of course... we went off that course when then something "big" he laid on me came out... I think my answer surprised him. Suddenly... he realized I meant what I said about supporting him through anything. I don't know where this is all going yet, but he DID say he almost came over here a number of times at night in the last few months. He's torn still... so yesssss proceed with caution... he's got to get over what he's been through in the last few month... but some things needed to be said and so we said a lot. .... An awful lot.

Talk about things turning on a dime. We hugged... and he kissed me. It wasn't a big smooch... but he kissed me. I could tell he wasn't sure about himself.... but now it's my turn to be stable... secure and straight arrow. I'm so afraid right now... because I have to keep my mouth shut about some things until this plays out. I still may end up single when this is all said and done... but I dunno... things are looking up for the first time since February. Things got complicated and simplified all at the same time. (don't ask about what... cuz I won't say until this plays out).

I even pinched myself after he left... for a minute I really had to wonder... was I dreaming this? If he keeps his date for dinner t'row night,... I'll know I'm not. *smile* Keep your fingers and toes crossed for me... PLEASE!!! And prayers too if you can.

Abbey