This is why the constant contact with H isn't good. It's an opportunity to DB, yes, but when he leaves, my sad feelings catch up with me and set me back.
This is what makes us believe that you are not ready to give up on your M. Don't worry no judgment here or 2x4s but I think that when you say those things it is out of your anger and hurt.
It really is going to be hard to see him everyday and just like in DR it says that when "Acting as If" if might hurt like hell and feel uncomfortable at first but you will get used to it and realize that it is best to just put a smile on your face and ASI you are happy and getting along fine. Hopefully he will come around and realize that he misses this amazing woman who is joyful and fun to be around.
Hang in there and keep posting here. We are here for support during those low times. Don't feel like any of us are judging you. We only offer insight from an outsiders view from what you have already said about your sitch.
