God give me the patience and the strength...6

[glamgirl]

TOH everyone here has given you good advice, but you seem to not want it. Only you can make changes for your situation.

You do remind me of myself though. I do remember being stuck like you were over a year ago. The difference is I started to make changes for myself. I realized my h was gone and nothing was going to bring him back.

I stopped the R talks, stopped calling him, did my best to stop thinking of him, what I did do was make changes for myself. Started to live my life without h because that was what I was left with. My h wasn't around to be included in on my life nor did he want to be around me.

My h would always say to me there is nothing to come home to. I don't want to be around you. Those words hurt, but I had to look deep at who I was and how I was projecting myself around my h. I realized he was right I was pushing him away rather than drawing him in. He was being suffocated by my questioning and my negative attitude around him.

After months of changes my h is progressing in a small way. He is not home, but I am encouraged that one day he may find his way home.

Ask yourself TOH, who you are today is that someone your h would like to spend the rest of his life with? You can be kind, loving, supportive, encouraging from a distance and then wait on God and see what changes he may bring about in you and your h.

Change starts with you TOH.