Not a huge update here. We talked a little yesterday/this morning about all this army stuff he is working through. He had an appt yesterday and another one this morning to try and get things sorted out. He got some bad news and I can tell he is getting frustrated. I wish he would just open up and let me in so that I can help him through this, even just as a shoulder to lean on in tough times. He always internalizes his stress and then it comes around to bite him in the butt later because after he does this for long enough he gets overwhelmed and shuts down and goes into this depressed state. I wish he would learn to express his stress in a healthy way. It would help him personally in addition to helping us as a couple.
One thing that kinda perked my ears was talking about going to training. He wants to switch jobs within the army but it will require him going away for training. Anywhere from 3-9 months. Depending on what career he chooses to pursue. Back when we lived together I was supportive of him going back to "school" because it could help us in the long run as far as money goes. At first the plan was for me to stay here at home while he was gone and just go out to visit him a couple of times but after the seperation and talking to our counselor about how the 6 months we spent apart last year shifted things in our marriage I changed my mind and told him that if we get back together and he goes away again that I want to go with him. That was probably a month ago when we first started talking again.
That's a lot of backstory but the main reason I bring it up is because I am really sad now that there is a chance that he might be leaving for training in the next few months, at least by the beginning of December, and that he would go without me. This whole seperation thing is hard enough when he is only an hour away. I can't imagine doing this if he moves across the country. It hurts even more because I was supposed to go too.
I will be supportive no matter what happens and I know there are a lot of steps that need to be made before he will be cleared to go but talking about it again brought back to mind a lot of the stresses and concerns that go along with the military lifestyle.
