For the Guy with Kids and a WW 11

[hopeful4her]

I think the key is to realize you do love your wife - that likely will not change because your heart won't let it. BUT you have to love YOURSELF as well. I struggle with that - I am a giver, not a taker - but I keep reminding myself that if I do not love myself, I can't really love anyone else.

Yeah, I hear ya. I haven't stopped loving her. I wish I could, but I can't. I have even told her this before. It would make it so much easier if I could just turn it off.

I can't.

Funny thing is that I AM feeling better about myself. My self esteem has sucked for years. My family and friends have helped with that.

I am a giver. And a rescuer. Always have been. I gave, she took.

I really like the person that I am. Maybe I don't love myself, but I really am a great guy. I have a lot to offer. I give my love freely and am a great listener. People always ask my advice
and I am a great friend to have.

And I love being a dad.

Okay, in the past 10 minutes, I have gotten two emails from her and spoken to my D11.

Just to bore ya'll, she sent:


"Good Morning,
I should be getting out at 10:30 can you check on the girls, my phone doesn't work right now"

I sent:

"Hi.

That was quick. Not even worth the gas, huh? I'll give them a call right now.

Enjoy your day."

I called my girlies. She sent back:

" I'm at La Cantera helping them test some programs, not worth the gas, but worth the time and a half, are they ok?"

So I sent:

"Uh, stay longer.

I just go off the phone with Amanda. They're ok. She had a pop tart and Juli had some cereal for breakfast.

Amanda already wants lunch. Steak? I told her to wait. Have a bowl of cereal. I got the usual whine. She's being silly."


Exciting stuff, huh?

Her phone doesn't work? Her cell? Her work phone?

Doesn't make sense to me.