Just lying smiling in the dark

[AliSuddenly]

I think you should (should is a bad word, but I'm going to use it anyway!)... NOT reply to the next email from your H, make him sweat a bit.. and next time the opportunity arises.. get blind drunk with your CEO, thats the only way you're going to find out! The sitch is just too constrained right now.

Gosh, does he really say he wants to be tucked up at home with a W and kids!??? And he is a CEO of a company, so got big brains (and a big chin, but lets not go there) and he makes your heart somersault!??? Lisa.. he's your destiny, I've thought it ever since you mentioned him ages ago!

Your H is a non-H. I dont mean to throw a spanner in the works here, but you seem pretty focused on the children thing.. so I am assunming, that if you're H came back tommorow, that would be something on the near horizon for you.. but he's just been seeing someone else for a year and you need to be able to talk that through and forgive him and get past it, before you think about conceiving??? It just sounds like an awful lot to get past in a short space of time. I had an EA and did kissing for 1 week, and when my ex found out, there were recriminations and questions for 6 months, maybe more, every week..until I answereed everything and he was reassured and had learnt to trust me again. At the time, I always felt it had made us stronger and he agreed, but it took alot to get past it and to be honest, I think that may have signalled the beginning of the end for him in actual fact.

God, I've got a rant on. Forget everything I said! Except.. do make your H sweat a bit on the email this week (?) and get drunk with your CEO and see if he declares undying love for you !!!!

I am mainly boshing iron pills and supplements and killing time till I have to go be a waitress.. its the kind of place there are romantic couples on dates, on tables for two, or tucked up by open fires, you know the kind of place. I try not to pay too much attention.

Ali xxx