The problem is she ignores me, so there isn't anything to validate.
I did text her about her being right out of the blue last night. I said your right we can put people on the moon, you should be able to plug everyting in. I do not know what I'm doing. I'm an idiot and a jacka$$. Then she started talking a little to me. I wonder how many times she tripped the breakers at her place.
Gosh, someone even took the foot print mark out of context. Because they do not understand the sitch. My wife was a clean freak. If you left a crumb on the counter she would go balastic. Because she stated she had OCD. Take your shoes off rule. Why should that change? Point is, I'm busting my a$$ keeping this house in tip top. The way she would want it. The way I want it. I mop these floors almost a thousand square foot of hard wood. I don't need a foot print on them. Then I used her rug in her foyer to walk my sleeping son in her house. I got a little bit of dirt on the rug, the rug that is suppose to be there for that reason and she flipped.
I should have shoved a damn grapefruit in her face...
She constantly disrespects me. I don't think she ever really treated me as her husband. She just wanted to control me and make me her slave, and I wasn't going to have it.
Animosity. I didn't help when I would dump a six pack down my throat.
I self medicated. Suppressed my feelings. Held everything together, so I thought.
Well the addition is done. There is still stuff that needs done. The deck is done. The kitchen is down, I finished that during WAW@home. But I still need to poly the cabinents, and build another.
I just do not feel like working on this house anymore. 8 years I worked on this house, and now I might loose it because of her selfish behavior. Bad enought I might loose my job, been feeling that pressure for 7 years.
Sometimes I think gee if she would have gotten that job earlier, she might have never of left. We would have a better lifestyle.
Now even she comes back... We are looking at debt. Debt she created. All we had was a mortgage payment and a car on a cc. Utilities. That was it...! Now we are screwed... and if she goes through with a divorce it will just get worse. She doesn't want lawyers. But by the way she acts I'll have to have them. So instead of the kids getting the money, the lawyers will get it.
