Well, I've done it again. Today we went to the club. He was texting with a friend a bit. He left his phone on the table to go and get something to drink. While he was gone his phone rang and who should it be but the girl he had an EA with in Jan. I hit the green button and then the red button on his phone right away. I flipped out! He went for a walk. I then decided to call her. I told her that her calling him hurt me and she hung up on me because I was so upset.
xh came back from his walk and was very upset/angry. He told me he wants nothing to do with me and he doesn't want to be around me ever again. He told me he doesn't care about me and never did and said I never think about how I hurt him only about how he hurt me. He said he can't believe I even touched his phone and when he found out I called her he got even angrier. He said she was probably calling to see how he was because a mutual friend told her he had been sick. That I don't know sh1t and my brain invents all sorts of false scenarios. He brought D and I home and left.
When we got home I texted her and told her I was sorry for calling her. She texted back and told me she only called because she heard he was sick and wanted to see how he was. I told her when I saw her calling I got upset but I was inmature to call. She then told me that I shouldn't worry about her and if her call affected me negatively then she won't call him again. I told her I couldn't control who she or xh spoke to and I hoped there were no hard feelings.
I think I managed to do some damage control with her but now I don't know what I can do to make it up to xh.
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
