letting go

[artteach]

Much better day. For the last couple of days really turned myself around and stopped calling him, kept our phone conversations light and short and what a difference it has made in me. I no longer feel so miserable after I talk to him and he actually has called me more today than he has in a long time, once because he was just stuck in traffic and wanted to talk (I was in the middle of a class - I teach high school - so I said I was busy and will talk to him later) of course I actually had to sit on my hands tonight not to call him to say goodnight (He has been working nights) and he called me. Small, small steps but if I can keep it up just maybe I will find myself in a better place emotionally and maybe he will see and remember who I am and who he fell in love with. If nothing else I feel better.