For the Guy with Kids and a WW 11

[hopeful4her]

karen, I have been up and down lately, and that is my fault. My breaking down has been mostly when I leave my girls off or talking to my D11. Kills me. I have been getting stronger concerning myself.

What completely threw me for a loop was GBG emailing me.

I actually feel very clear headed. I can't help the circle of friends that I have. I do not plan things with them. I have gotten invited and I have gone along.

If I wanted to do something, I would have a long time ago. Ya'll know the opportunity has presented itself. Its not what I want. I want my GBG to snap out of it and come backbut she is way too stubborn to listen to me or anything I tell her. If I push her on anything, the wall and the defenses come up.

"I am not sure I want to go that route right now."

I'll take that as hopeful for some day. I'll keep working on her somehow.

To her, I am her enemy. She feels guilty? GOOD! She should.

I don't, because I am not doing wrong. Are they attractive? Yes. Am I attracted to them? Yes. Am I going to jump them? No. Am I a man? Yes, so I have guy thoughts. But I don't act on them.

Dub, my thoughts and my actions are two different things. Sometimes I let my thoughts wander too much, but I can control my actions. Always have. You know I post my thoughts for a reason. To get them out. It helps me keep myself accountable, so don't get too frustrated with me. Remember, I told you that your right there in the back of my mind, too. My little voice of reason when I might need it. You underestimate me.

kat, I do plan on going to the bar by myself tonight. Looking forward to it, actually. A band that GBG and I used to go see is going to be there. I think that would be another checked off my list. I guess that IS big for me.

Now if you could just go with me to THAT. How cool would that be?