OK, I just got home and read about 12 posts from all you guys and girls. Thank you so much for the support and encouragement. I will say that tears were streaming down my face as I read everything. I'm in so much pain, dernit! It almost unbearable -- kind of like the feeling of getting clawed to death by some large bear who is going for my guts. But, I'm still standing (I wish someone would explain to me what "standing" or "a stander" is).
Anyway, I went to see my friends this morning who live in Georgia. They are here for only one day and they are moving to Athens. I have not seen her in over a year, and him in three years. He's a Baptist Minister, and they are missionaries.
Ester was reprimanding me for how I have been reacting to H. She knows him and she said that the "...only thing I can keep thinking about is how lonely he was." WTF! He was married, for cripes sake!
She wanted to hear about me but then when I started telling her, she was called away from the conversation and that was the end of that. I got pretty depressed standing around, so I left after a half hour.
Stopped by my other friends hair dresser's shop but she was busy with customers and said she'll call me later. Then I went to the bank and withdrew $1,500 to get me through the next two weeks. H will not like that when he sees my bank statement for the past few months. I've depleted my "personal" checking account, but he's spent so much money it's not funny. And, we all know where his money has gone.
Oh, I have a good book "His needs, Her needs." I'm going to curl up under the covers with my new bottle of Blackberry Merlot and read it for a while.
Will check back later.
hugs to ALL of you. Thank you for your kindness. I have to try and work on my "financial disclosure" forms today too. Our attnys are having a phone conference on the 14th for some unbeknownst-to-me reason.
Peace, love and kindness! poet
P.S. Oh, and I forgot to mention that I just painted my fingernails while waiting for the Internet to connect!
P.S.S. I got a feeling that TwinDad is reading along. Hugs, TD. I love you. Please drop by once in a while, K?
and read it for a while. 