But you are saying you will go by yourself which is HUGE!! You are trying to get yourself to a better place of mind and soul. It is difficult not to think about W because you have been doing your life together up until this situation arose.
I am sure you are getting tired of hearing it, but keep focusing on you and what you can control will amke a world of difference for you.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory