She didn't have the kids call me after school. So I texted, kids call me. Nothing. At 4 I left a calm voice mail. This is the family phone I expect it to be picked up when I call. At 4:15 I text Kids call me. At 4:30 I leave another calm voice mail. Then I text. You are proving to me that you are crazy.
At quarter after 6. She text: Sorry I left the phone at home. The phone rings it's my son says he wants to be with me. He says d's friend is there and he wants to be with me. I tell him I'll be there in 15 minutes. Maverick supersonic.
I pick him up and talk to D. Kiss her and tell her I love her. I poke a little fun at D's friend because she has such a rhyming name. Wife comes to door and asks when I can bring him back. I said I don't know around nine it's a school night. I will call you.
She was in the house. My neighbor told me she took something. There was a mess in the sink, green juice, etc... I text her, you made a mess in the sink. (I'm thinking what are you doing in the house.) She text back, oh sorry, your d did that with her juice. Son spills the beans that they were in the house playing video games and mommy was getting somethign for sisters baby. Son and I have a great time playing video games. Get him bathed and fed.
I call her at 10 to nine and said he is ready. She asked if he bathed. I tell her yes. He also ate. She said okay I'm giving D a bath now. I said did D's friend leave. She said oh yeah she dropped him off.
I take him to her. Wife comes to door. Son goes in. Her and I have some small talk. I ask D to come to door, so I can kiss her good night. I tell her D you look so pretty. Have a nice day at school. Son starts whining to her that he is hungry. I said he ate at the house. She tells him to go upstairs and she would get him something. This continues about 5 times. I said son please just give mommy and daddy a little time. He keeps screaming he is hungry.
Then I loose it. I said to her. This is why you and I never had any time together. This constant parade from the kids. Now he just ate at our house, stop arguing with him.
Then I really loose. I said please give me a hug. She does but rolls her eyes. I kiss her cheek. I said please give me a real kiss. She said, no we never kiss. I said yes we did. You just stopped doing it.
I said I love you. I'm going to go. Son is still screaming. She says go or I'm going to shut the door on you.
I said why are you so mean to me. You will not invite me into your place. You come into our house, take things, and do not even ask. Stay out of the house. She said I needed something for my sisters baby. Well I said ask then.
I said I love you. Please say it back. She puts on hands on her face. I love you Phil. Now give me a hug. She hugs me and rubs my chest. And there is son standing there still yelling at her that he is hungry.
Yeah, how stupid am begging her again. Telling her I love her and forcing her to say it back.
You know I know I'm doing everything wrong. I can't contain myself around her. I just want to burst. And you are all right. I am my own worst enemy. I can't leave her alone. I bother her too much.
But you see she was messing with me earlier. She wants me to snap. So that she can say, you see, you see how he acts.
I left. I took my ahwhile to get my bearings. I just put my hands on my face and sat in the car ahwile.
About an hour later. I text her. You are so mean.
She text back. I know.
I was watching the Republican convention. There was a line about the first lady. I said you would make a great first lady. She text. haha.
Now my cousin was texting me too. I got another text, I grabbed my phone, and it fell on the floor.
It's broke, the phone is broke it will not turn on.
It's like a damn force keeping us a away. The storm. The network went down. The power outage. Her parents show up.
Everytime I think I'm getting a little closer. Something happens. Something weird. How many times can you drop a phone and it still works about a thousand. This one took one fall from about 4 feet and died.
I called her from the home phone in the morning. I said kids call me on the home phone. My cell phone is broke. It will not turn on.
She calls back. I tell her my cell is broke. She says Oh I thought I called the cell. No you called the house phone.
WTF??? She didn't even know it was the house phone. It has caller ID. Even if she looked at it, and should have realized is was the house phone.
She says her schedule is changed can I get the kids at such and such a time. I tell her yes. She says the kids are happy I don't have to work tonight. I'm thinking I'm not.
Why am I so accomadating.
So now my cell phone doesn't work. I don't know what the next text was.
I think this cell phone causes too many problems. It makes it way to easy for her to act crazy. Hide behind text and such. I don't think I should get another. But I can't cancel it....
The cell phone... It's the devil. But it's my lifeline. All my friends numbers are on it. My family, etc... it's like another appendage.
Now I just called and it is a big PIA to get another one under warrenty. They have to send one to you. You have to pay shipping.
Maybe it is a god send its broke. It will force her to talk to me in voice. She can't text me. I can't text her anymore.
But her text to me in the evenings were crumbs.
I don't want crumbs anymore.
The only advice I want is about the cell phone. The other stuff I already know what I did wrong. I don't need told. I'm just writing it all down to explain what a total idiot I am.
And SG, I do believe marriage has a great deal to do with theology, and the two need discussed together.
